Musings of a Dumb Ass

When the end of life truly does come into sight and there is a definitive time beyond which you know there is no life left for you, how do you reconcile life and how was it? Life is an adventure and a tragedy simultaneously. What you thought might be important or necessary at the time may prove to have not been so and ergo, created an unwanted direction in your life that opened other things in your journey so grand and wonderful that you forgot what was so important, only to be revisited by it at some other time in the future when the lights dim and adventure has moved on.
Those who manage and plan their lives so totally controlled and scripted may wonder at the end if chaos wouldn't have created a more rewarding trip.
Those who just drifted along and took the easy way with no confrontations may feel unfulfilled and cheated at the end.
Some chase security from the first day at work and prepare for a comfortable retirement from day one then find that so much life was wasted accumulating things that not nearly enough time is left to live out what you earned.
Some cling to family and old roots then one day realize that it cost you the world, while another might give up family and roots for the world only to wonder at the end if they didn't miss what life really was about.
We spend our time with partners who we love but wonder how life would have been another direction, all the while expecting devotion and total commitment until we choose to start anew on our own whim and schedule, but are shocked and devastated if we're faced with desertion and abandonment by surprise.
Life is a Goddam crapshoot, and just like the game, sooner or later we all lose, but life is sweet to the end...............