Boredom
I have an ongoing case of boredom with life. It's been going on for over 10 years and can be troublesome and depressing. This is a time in my life that should be exciting, but isn't. I'm single and there's a world full of ladies to be addressed, I'm back to entertaining again, overall business is good, health is excellent, stress level is low. So what's my problem?
The single part is good. Life is uncomplicated and my time is my own and I'm anything but lonely. But to keep anykind of meaningful company with a lady means I gotta listen to everything bad that's happened in her life and hear about everybody that ever wronged her or offended her and since I've been single again I have yet to run into a lady that wasn't angry.
The stage was always my life and a return to it would suggest the beginning of life again, but that too is proving to have a streak of boredom in it too. Since I've taken stage again there hasn't been a single audience that hasn't made it plain I still had some magic. Outside of a couple of times it just hasn't really been magic for me. Can this change? Don't know
Business has been more than I can handle, and very physical, which keeps me healthy. I should thank my lucky stars for my good fortune, but that just ain't much fun either.
Stress? Haven't had any for awhile.
So what is my problem?
I think the world I live in is the problem. Honesty is the cornerstone for my happiness, and the world I'm part of just doesn't have much of it. I appreciate the art of telling a good fib to enhance the moment, the one who can do that is the one who has the most fun, and that's not what I define as honesty. The honesty that's important is truth about everything that matters, and life comes up shy there.
Dreams are what makes life go 'round, and that may be what's got the doldrums so heavy on me. I find myself with no real dreams left and nothing in particular that I want to do.
This must change.......
The single part is good. Life is uncomplicated and my time is my own and I'm anything but lonely. But to keep anykind of meaningful company with a lady means I gotta listen to everything bad that's happened in her life and hear about everybody that ever wronged her or offended her and since I've been single again I have yet to run into a lady that wasn't angry.
The stage was always my life and a return to it would suggest the beginning of life again, but that too is proving to have a streak of boredom in it too. Since I've taken stage again there hasn't been a single audience that hasn't made it plain I still had some magic. Outside of a couple of times it just hasn't really been magic for me. Can this change? Don't know
Business has been more than I can handle, and very physical, which keeps me healthy. I should thank my lucky stars for my good fortune, but that just ain't much fun either.
Stress? Haven't had any for awhile.
So what is my problem?
I think the world I live in is the problem. Honesty is the cornerstone for my happiness, and the world I'm part of just doesn't have much of it. I appreciate the art of telling a good fib to enhance the moment, the one who can do that is the one who has the most fun, and that's not what I define as honesty. The honesty that's important is truth about everything that matters, and life comes up shy there.
Dreams are what makes life go 'round, and that may be what's got the doldrums so heavy on me. I find myself with no real dreams left and nothing in particular that I want to do.
This must change.......
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